I just HATE it

I hate it so much

When someone came into my life. Entered my heart , took my heart and ripped it off. Like wth must u do that to me. Don't dare to come in my life and do that. I hate it. PLUS my heart is already broken .Someone made a hole in heart. Then I fixed it . But there still a scars .

So i moving on after healing it . Then some came in my life and made it better. But does not stayed long enough.  And just left me hanging and made me confuse .

I thought i have a chance to be happy again .To be someone that can make me happy .but it just make it worse.

Made me not to be in love all over again . I felt like they take me for granted.not appreciated .

I felt hopeless. I felt heart broken.
I should not trust anyone. It just make me hurt.

I know that the new someone and me do not have any attachment. Not in relationship. But that person gave me hope .and the one that giving ,are the one who crush it.

I don't care if tht person do not like me or not.but do not give hope at the first place. And i know i shouldn't put hopes on him..but don't just ignore me.ignore my messages. It just hurt to be ignored.Atleast give me some explanation .

Hais.. I'm tired. I'm tired with all this bullshit. This thing should be stop and not to be repeated.

That's it . I'm done.Its enough. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I should Be more Careful . I should stop being too nice to people.coz the one that I cared too much are the one who hurts me the most.

They are not worth to be cared for.Sometimes I need to be selfish .To care for ownself. Put myself first before others.Learn to love myself first.To care for my own heart.and I don't want to hurt myself anymore.

Its more than enough .

Learnt.move on . And improve.


That's it.

Goodnight.