Worth the wait

Its been awhile since the last time i post this blog. Everything are going so well and i am so happy with my life.

So the 8 months tht i didn't see and talk to him has ended.Actually it ended a month ago . So we started talking on the 1st september . Of coz he is the one who start the conversation and  I am so so so happy tht we are back together . Alhamdulilah .The wait are really worth it because i got back my man .hehe.

Let me update my life . Now i'm currently unemployed because I've ended my work life(for now) on 31st September and I'm gonna persue my studies  . Taking Diploma in I.T and the class will start on 17 October 2016. Wuu 1 more week . So fast .

Ok i should probably get to sleep now. Goodnight.

"Do not waste time in life "

Goodnight

Feeling good

14 Aug 2016

My looks for today

  

It feels so good to go out somewhere that I've never been before  . It has been a while since the last time I went around in Malaysia without my family and went to the places besides Aeon , Tesco and Giant. I love to go out explore new places and try new things . 

 So today I went out for lunch with my colleague and her family. They were very kind to fetch me from my house and bring me to one of this stall that sells  Indo foods like Mee Bakso and Ayam Penyet. Then we found out the stall that are near to my  house were close on Sunday . Then she decided to go the one that are near to Angsana shopping mall.

So I ordered Mee Ayam Bakso and Teh Ice . It taste great. And I also tried the Satay Padang . Spicy..but taste delicious .I love the gravy and the chicken .Then we went to Aeon to buy some groceries then she sent me home. 

I thought things like this would not happen again .Like going out in Malaysia with my friend and try new foods.Cause the last time I have a neighbor who are Singaporean and they like to bring me around Malaysia to try cheap and good foods. It was back in 2014 & 2015 where I get to explore to new places that i have never been to . I went to Pasar Pandan ,Dangga Bay and more . We went holiday together , watch movies , did activities together , went for breakfast , lunch and dinner.. it was so much fun . And I miss all of it. So they went back to their old house . Back to Singapore and another one back to Australia. 

Even though I just went out for lunch with my colleague .but for me it feels great to be able to go out again in Malaysia and explore and try something new . Rather then staying at home. But I still love staying home alone tho. Doing laundry , did some home chores watch Youtube videos have some alone time.Sometimes i did went out with my family after work or on the weekend.

But my favorite  will be going out exploring , see the world , walk , sweat ..cause it make me feel healthy and it is good to have fun outside. Cause went i'm tired walking and all . At night its easier for me to go to sleep . And just feels great. Hopefully things like this occur more often.

Till then .. Goodnight ;)

Its hard for me to forget the person that really mean alot to me.Sometimes I felt like i really need to let it go .But its so hard for me. I tried but it keep turning back .I don't know why but sometimes I feel that he is inside of me.Inside of my heart. Lock and safe in there. Sometimes I felt like he is always there talking to me. It seems like I really can't forget about him .5 years .
5 years I've been with him.Its a long period of time. Alot of things we have went through .I miss him . There is a time I imagine what if one day he msg me .tell me that he miss me too.but it just my imagination.but if it were to happen.I'll be the most happiest person.

But I don't know .idk if he's still have a feeling towards me or not.if he can accept me for who I am without asking me to change to be a different person.I want someone to love me for me .not changing me to be the one that I'm not.I know I should not put hopes. I just wish we can back together again like we used to be. If he's move on .tell me.so it be easier or it will help me to not have feeling towards him anymore.

But I think for now I should just focus for my future and improve to be a better person.

If he is not for me .I accept it and moving on.If yes then I'm happy of course.

Yeah so thats all. Just hoping for the better. IN SYAA ALLAH.Amin.

goodnight 🌌

😌

Slowly it will fade away ..

Reminder to myself

Lesson learnt for the month of June .

1)Not to trust people easily.

2)Sometimes we need to put ourself first before others.

3)Don't easily fall for people.

4)Be positve for things that happen. Cause maybe better things might be coming.

Be strong. In Syaa Allah everything will be okay and better. Goodnight😉🌌

Alhamdulilah . I feel really happy with my work , my work place and all .

I just HATE it

I hate it so much

When someone came into my life. Entered my heart , took my heart and ripped it off. Like wth must u do that to me. Don't dare to come in my life and do that. I hate it. PLUS my heart is already broken .Someone made a hole in heart. Then I fixed it . But there still a scars .

So i moving on after healing it . Then some came in my life and made it better. But does not stayed long enough.  And just left me hanging and made me confuse .

I thought i have a chance to be happy again .To be someone that can make me happy .but it just make it worse.

Made me not to be in love all over again . I felt like they take me for granted.not appreciated .

I felt hopeless. I felt heart broken.
I should not trust anyone. It just make me hurt.

I know that the new someone and me do not have any attachment. Not in relationship. But that person gave me hope .and the one that giving ,are the one who crush it.

I don't care if tht person do not like me or not.but do not give hope at the first place. And i know i shouldn't put hopes on him..but don't just ignore me.ignore my messages. It just hurt to be ignored.Atleast give me some explanation .

Hais.. I'm tired. I'm tired with all this bullshit. This thing should be stop and not to be repeated.

That's it . I'm done.Its enough. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I should Be more Careful . I should stop being too nice to people.coz the one that I cared too much are the one who hurts me the most.

They are not worth to be cared for.Sometimes I need to be selfish .To care for ownself. Put myself first before others.Learn to love myself first.To care for my own heart.and I don't want to hurt myself anymore.

Its more than enough .

Learnt.move on . And improve.


That's it.

Goodnight.

To the Galaxy🌌

Things to do .

Making my self happy/busy.

So besides 5 days a week working days (Sometime 6 if I want to do OT on Saturday) I want to make one or two days of a ME time.

So here a list of things that I want to do.

Saturday(if I'm not working)

Its a day for me to make things done .

-doing the laundary

-clean up my room , my kitchen and my living room .

-mop &sweep the floor

-give food , change water and litter for the cats

-do some workout/yoga

Then.. I watch videos go to social media.


Then Sunday

-continue doing the balance of laudary

-cleaning

-give food ,drinks and change litter for cats

-do more workout

-read books

-gain some knowledge

-go to social media.

And thats it for the weekend.




Really need to pull myself up . Improve .
Reminding myself not to care for someone that does not care for me and something that just gonna waste my time or hurt my feelings even more.

So yeah that's about it. Gooooooooodnight 🌉n sweetdreams🌌

Hate it.

Tk suke bile kte da rse yg kte ni da move  on . Da boleh terima . Da happy. Tpi .. bile kte jatuh kt that  one big hole , rse susah nk bgn kn diri balik .teringt kn balik time mase2 bahagia then rse bnde tu tk jdi lgi kt diri kte.pstu teringt kate2 n bnde2 sedeh tros rse sedeh. Rse mcm woah beza nye dulu ngn skrg. Dulu kte ade ngn org yg kte syg . Skrg bile tkde.... cm macam mane nk biasekn diri  .kdg2 tu boleh lh  tk ingtkn sngt tntg perkara2 yg menyedih kn . Then bile da rse sunyi .. mcm2 yg timbul .

Tpi tkplh doakn yg baik2 saje. Fikirkn yg baik2 saje. Kuatkn diri , memperbaiki diri  dan mudah2han yg baik akn dtg pade diri kte. In Syaa Allah amin.