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Upcoming Test.. 

aaaah!  Entrance test for less than a week . 

So on the 17th of January 2016 I've applied for Diploma in Information Technologies in MDIS .I've failed my English n Maths O'level results , so I need to take their entrance test which are  English and Maths. Then I told them that I will take the test on 28th January .Both subject on the same day . I'm not sure what to study for that . I just read essays in my O levels essay models book. They gave me sample of the Entrance Test . I read thru it and I've tried the maths question . Mostly it was easy but I hope it will on the day itself. I hope the test went well on the actual day so that I can enter the School of I.T . They give 3 times to take the test. If not well , we can retake . But of course I want to pass so I don't need to retake.

So that's about it . Bye !

Ahh ! I have no idea what happen with blog . My picture and my post has just mixed up .
I don't know what to do to solve this problem . I try to  figure it out later .

Okay so now I want to reflect back what have I done today that does not waste my time.

Productive things I did :

1- Doing the laundry.

2-I cooked . yes I can cook. hehe just instant fried noodles and then I fried chickens :D Yummy (But now I hungry)

3- I cleaned my cats room . Yes I have cats and they have their own room . I gave them foods and changing up their drinks then I put them all in their cage so that I mop the floor . Now their room smell good and their floor sparkling.

4- I washed my shoe and let it dry outside.

5- Cleaned my kitchen and dining table :D

Then my brother made a messed -_-

Haiss .. and I 'm not bother to clean it up again.

Yeah that's all I did .

So this is how my cats sleep.

 Okay , Goodnight:)

Changes

Changing ma looks ;)

This is me with my mum actually .We're at Jem mall , eating Mee Rebus before I go to work. Taken in 2015.

And this is me still at home , taking picture before going out with my family . This taken in January 2016 . 



I'm changing my hijab look , making my face rounder and before this I'm used to wear dark colors . So now I'm decided to wear bright colors to brighten up my day :)

As much as i want ..

08 January 2016 

I email him . I wanted to know if he's okay . Like i said earlier that i really miss him and i worried about him .So then he replied me on that day . Telling me that he's okay and he want to change to be a better muslim . He just need time and space. And he also told me that if he's ready , then he will find for me . And if we have fate to be together then it will be .

Hmm.. yeah i understand his situation right now. As much i wanted to contact him, meet him ..but i know i can't . I need to give him time and space for him and maybe its good for me too. So that i can also learn to improve myself in anyways and be a better person.

I feel sad to be in our separate ways. But minds over body and hearts want what it want . But we have mind to think further and not just do things by just following our own feelings. Even though its hard but it is for our own goods .To think further before we do anything . The results may not show it now but it will in the future . In Syaa Allah .

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I'm not use to be without him . He always there for me and I never feel alone. He is there for me to share anything and it has become a routine to listen to  his stories almost everyday .But now I can't sure when can I hear it again .

I know i can't keep the feeling of sadness in myself, I want to let it out but I don't want to share this to anyone that i know cause they surely will ask me alot of questions. This is why I share this is my blog . To let out of my thoughts and feelings.

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As much I wanted to keep it from my family about my feelings right now. Somehow my mum will surely know that there is something wrong. I bet she feel it . She asked my why and am I okay. Maybe I'm obvious or she knows. I trying to act normal as if nothing wrong that happening lately. So I  keep my mouth shut and  hoping everything will be okay .

I want it to be okay sooner so that everything will be back to normal. Me and him ,together like we always do. But I know it can't be rush . Anything needs time. 

That's why, everything we do , we need to think before we act on it . So we not regret it. 

I made mistake, I regret , I learnt from it and change it to be better . 

Reallyreally loving this picture. Taken by my special someone . #photoshootday #byNT

07 January 2016

The first time me and my special someone met for this year. 
We met and something unexpected occur . Something that i never imagine to be happen.For some reason it just happen all out  sudden . Then he accompany me to Watsons HQ cause i need to give back their belonging. Then we went to SGH , for him to check his BP and heart. Its normal , thankfully .We talked and we wave for goodbye .He need to go home and I need to meet my mother at 5. So everything went so quickly . We decided to take a break and we broke up.My dream to see him for his graduation day, can't be make it.I miss him. I really do . I don't know what will happen next. I really wanted to see him again . But I don't know. I hope he's okay . I'm so worried about him but nothing much I can do . Hopefully time heals everything. It takes time to recover the situation . Probably months or years. Whatever happen , I just pray that we can talk , meet and be together again .

In Syaa Allah.