Alhamdulilah . I feel really happy with my work , my work place and all .

I just HATE it

I hate it so much

When someone came into my life. Entered my heart , took my heart and ripped it off. Like wth must u do that to me. Don't dare to come in my life and do that. I hate it. PLUS my heart is already broken .Someone made a hole in heart. Then I fixed it . But there still a scars .

So i moving on after healing it . Then some came in my life and made it better. But does not stayed long enough.  And just left me hanging and made me confuse .

I thought i have a chance to be happy again .To be someone that can make me happy .but it just make it worse.

Made me not to be in love all over again . I felt like they take me for granted.not appreciated .

I felt hopeless. I felt heart broken.
I should not trust anyone. It just make me hurt.

I know that the new someone and me do not have any attachment. Not in relationship. But that person gave me hope .and the one that giving ,are the one who crush it.

I don't care if tht person do not like me or not.but do not give hope at the first place. And i know i shouldn't put hopes on him..but don't just ignore me.ignore my messages. It just hurt to be ignored.Atleast give me some explanation .

Hais.. I'm tired. I'm tired with all this bullshit. This thing should be stop and not to be repeated.

That's it . I'm done.Its enough. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I should Be more Careful . I should stop being too nice to people.coz the one that I cared too much are the one who hurts me the most.

They are not worth to be cared for.Sometimes I need to be selfish .To care for ownself. Put myself first before others.Learn to love myself first.To care for my own heart.and I don't want to hurt myself anymore.

Its more than enough .

Learnt.move on . And improve.


That's it.

Goodnight.

To the Galaxy🌌

Things to do .

Making my self happy/busy.

So besides 5 days a week working days (Sometime 6 if I want to do OT on Saturday) I want to make one or two days of a ME time.

So here a list of things that I want to do.

Saturday(if I'm not working)

Its a day for me to make things done .

-doing the laundary

-clean up my room , my kitchen and my living room .

-mop &sweep the floor

-give food , change water and litter for the cats

-do some workout/yoga

Then.. I watch videos go to social media.


Then Sunday

-continue doing the balance of laudary

-cleaning

-give food ,drinks and change litter for cats

-do more workout

-read books

-gain some knowledge

-go to social media.

And thats it for the weekend.




Really need to pull myself up . Improve .
Reminding myself not to care for someone that does not care for me and something that just gonna waste my time or hurt my feelings even more.

So yeah that's about it. Gooooooooodnight 🌉n sweetdreams🌌

Hate it.

Tk suke bile kte da rse yg kte ni da move  on . Da boleh terima . Da happy. Tpi .. bile kte jatuh kt that  one big hole , rse susah nk bgn kn diri balik .teringt kn balik time mase2 bahagia then rse bnde tu tk jdi lgi kt diri kte.pstu teringt kate2 n bnde2 sedeh tros rse sedeh. Rse mcm woah beza nye dulu ngn skrg. Dulu kte ade ngn org yg kte syg . Skrg bile tkde.... cm macam mane nk biasekn diri  .kdg2 tu boleh lh  tk ingtkn sngt tntg perkara2 yg menyedih kn . Then bile da rse sunyi .. mcm2 yg timbul .

Tpi tkplh doakn yg baik2 saje. Fikirkn yg baik2 saje. Kuatkn diri , memperbaiki diri  dan mudah2han yg baik akn dtg pade diri kte. In Syaa Allah amin.